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Monday, February 18, 2008
dear bloggy..
this is gonna be my last post before i go off..
btw..suddenly i was thinking of kak junn..
"kak junn!! i m gg to india!!! take care aites!!! i'll blog summore when i get back k..I MISS U LAR KAK!!!"
hehehe...
niwaes..like i say again, if there's anione is missing me,check out the stars aites, cos i m seeing the same stars as u..ehehehehe...
and
refers to all aites..
and if there is anione asking me who is in my heart..i'll tell u sumting..
i myself am nt sure k...
OKLAH..
stop all this emo/jiwang shit..
i shud be happy for the future rite?
and well..
i m rushing cos i havent finished all my packing...clothes all checked..the rest accessories havent lar sey..
so i gtg now..
take care k everyone..
LURP U ALL...
diana..
*twinKLEs
* crying proves to me dat i m still human.
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8:21 AM :)
Friday, February 15, 2008
dear bloggy..
ppl haf always told me that being a secretary is diff..but u noe wat? being a secretary wifout a hp is more diff...y? cos for me, i wud rather send smses than talking on the fon summore, its easier for ppl to contact me straight than having to leave msgs when i m not ard...
and heck it...
i dun tink i m doing a good enuf job as a secretary..the first task already i cocked up..well..cos i dun haf everyone's no..but i did ask for sum help from azhar...but still..there are bound to be mistakes rite? haiz..also, since i m gg to india for 3 wks, i m having a major headache abt my job..i dun wanna juz leave it for other's to do it cos it shows how inept i m..haiiizzz..
haf to talk it out wif azhar mayb..
and yeah...another disappointment, juz now met yan and he was kinda cold towards me..cant blame him..i tend to test his patience a lil' bit too much..hehe..
and wat else..oh ya..
saw syaz at civic centre and she shrieked my name so loud dat i think everyone noes my name..hehe..even yan agress to dat..hehehe..
gonna see u tmr k babes..ehehehe..
klah..gtg now..
haf other things to attend to..
diana..
*twiNKLes
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10:33 PM :)
dear bloggy..
its dat jittery feeling again..the nervousness all building up inside me...juz before gg off for a trip overseas..
but this time its diff...
cause its for 3 wks..and well..its to India..another continent altogether wif a diff native tongue and culture..
mayb i'll get a culture shock but i guess it will be a GREAT experience..
heck..didnt really noe dat volunteer work involve alot of work..but i guess it does..(lyk duuuh..mcm bodoh gitu statement tu..heheh..)
but yeah..got this criteria, dat criteria dat we must all fulfill...
esp this one criteria: do CIP.
and guess wat did lovable dr e wanted us to do?
!!volunteer at BOYS TOWN!!
of all the things we cud do(which i cud list down..hehe), we had to do dat! and i heard dat its to play captain's ball..
GOSH!! tkder keje btol cikgu aku ni..
and its this sat..urrrgggghhhh..
I CANT WAIT!!
ahahahaax...
ok2..still havent pack my bag..cos i have no bag to bring..i think..i cant find it larrrr...ishk..
well..niwaes...
a very happy bdae to dat person..
may all ur wishes cum true and be happy always aites..
take care too..
and yeah..
abt vdae..
went out for lunch wif
adam and saw his aunt! OMG and she tot i m his gf and commented why he didnt buy for me any flower..issshhhkk..
PAISEH lar sey...but i dun mind a flower..ehehehe..
ahahx..but well..the countdown is getting nearer..haiiizzz...
and i m gonna miss all my frens..thank god i haf tried my best to meet all before i go off..ahahax..
klah..gtg do work..
hehe..
diana..
*twinKLes
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8:16 AM :)
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
dear bloggy..
went to ttsh for my vaccination. alot of things cocked up. like dr e cuming late wif the essential forms, the queue to get the medical checkup and the queue(again!) for the tablets for malaria..cos for all those queues we had to go thru sum briefing..and urgh! the injection, though fast, still kinda hurt..hehe..
its still numb till now!!
ohkay then..
wat else to blog abt?
ermmm..
yeah...
i think i'll be freaking busy for the next few days..
still nid to pack my things..
help out dr e wif preparing all the things to bring there..
wat wif wanting to meet all my frens before i go..(and i m left wif oni thurs, fri,sat and sun..)
dinah's IEC in sch on sat..
and...my aunt(i think) is getting married on sun..
haiiixxx...
wat else eh?
i think dats all lar..
apart from all the confusion in my head..
gtg now...
bubbye..
diana...
*twinKLEs
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9:09 PM :)
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
dear bloggy..
did i tell u HE called?
HIM?
that one person dat i haf vowed to be with unless he wants a separation?
ahahax..
i dunnoe whether shud i laugh or cry...
i tink i shud laugh and cry out of happiness..hehehe..
oh and u noe wat?
now i m confused abt the rest? oh well..
i told u all..aft i get back from india aites..
and if HE is reading this..u noe it..u told me to find a better guy..but i cannot find one..and i noe i nid more time to decide abt all these things..thats why i m gg to india..
i wanted sum time alone...
and also by the time i get back, HE wud be free..
so mayb HE can make the decision for me..
i hope sooo...really hope soo...
haiiixxx...
oh and a wk left till india..
nyehahaha~~
and...
suddenly i forgot what i m supposed to type..hehehe..
SLENGE ME!!
oklah..gtg and see the doc..
bubbye..
diana..
*twiNKLEs
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12:37 PM :)
Monday, February 11, 2008
dear bloggy..
my right eye is badly swollen so tmr i really haf to go to doc to check it up..
and to think dat weds i haf another full medical check up for vaccination etc..
and the meeting juz now was boring.
wanna ask y? well..
i was late for an hour but dr e still wasnt in..hehe..thank god..cos i was lazy..
ehehe..
and he was explaining everything but no black and white so i got kinda confused..
and...i was asked to join the entertainment commitee..
and guess wat dr e asked us to do? he asked us to do a hiphop dance!! wakaka...
dikir barat is better rite? i can ask help frm my fwens!! and mayb a short skit or cheer..whichever is easier..hehehe...
and we are supposed to get at least 30 bks ea to donate to the new library we are stocking up there..and i cant wait..cos i have ALOT of books to donate..hehehehe..
wheeeeww..so many ands...
and...i m happy..
who the fuck am i
KIDDING? i think even a BLIND person can see thru me!!
(pardon all these puns...must be the bookworm virus.hehehe..)
oh..and did i tell u wat i do everyday nowadays? its either i m online, updating blog, chat, aimlessly surfing, reading, watching tv or sleeping..and yeah..alot of reading..ahahax..
i juz finished two books in two days..which is yest and todae..
cos yest my mum had to drag me to the library..hehe...cos i was super lazy lah..i had gone to the library earlier to find books by Robin Cook but not one of them are there..so i was pissed..
library at lot 1..library at bpp pun tkder..sakit hatikan?
urgh.
ok..so i guess i am very bored..wat abt i make myself as occupied by editing anibody's blog or doing sum freaking article..or yeah...write a letter to my foster parents in selangor..
or...plan abt wat to do in india..
aahahax..
klah..
shud get on wif it rite?
gtg now..
diana..
*twinKLEs
*krukits!
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8:45 PM :)
dear bloggy...
did i tell u i m feeling a teensy-weensy excited abt sum things..
i dunnoe how to explain..its juz dat smile on my face has been there since juz now..
ahahax..
since i booted up my lappy and signed in into msn and saw dat person left a msg..
CRAZY or wat?
ahahax..
btw, if anione has been asking why i was sooo excited to go to india..lemme tell u why..
this trip is an educational trip..i wud be learning alot of things aites..
and its a GREAT bargain k..
where wud u get a 70% off in expenditures? for 21 days summore..ahahax..
i oni haf to pay $400 ok..
and yeah..i m having a break from singapore..i cant help think abt this and dat..
i really hope dat when i m away i'll get to reflect on my life..
and probably solve most of my probs..
oh well..
gtg now..
having another meeting wif dr e and heck..my right eye is swollen too..
so mayb gg to mit the doc as soon as i m free and when dr e tells me dat i nid a medical checkup..ahahax..
diana..
*twinKLEs
*oh and did i tell u its supposed to be my 6th mth anni yest?
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9:39 AM :)
Saturday, February 9, 2008
dear bloggy...
I LOVE MY BABES SEYYYYY!!!
hehehe..
i guess i noe why girls become butches...cos ladies are nicer than guys...andddd...usually butches will get prettier ladies...hehehe..
amacam babes? hehe..nk join the butch gang? but i guess cannot lar..
i juz cant fall in love wif a female..ahahax..however the dressing is..hehe..
but still..
thanks babes!!
u are always LOVED!!
hehehe..
*HUGS TIGHTLY!!*
oh..and thanks riaaa..
though i still wonder whether u r riaa from silat, i still thank u for ur advice..ya..sumtimes they are a pain in the ass..but its the kind of pain u cant be cured from..hehehe..
niwaes, i got nth else to talk abt..
cos i haf been rotting at home all this time..and nxt wk is my last wkend..
then BUBBYE to me..
haiixx..saddening..
but oh well..
i m kinda okay wif it..
ade sikit mls..hehehehe..
klah..
gtg now..
bubbye again..
diana..
*twinKLes
*~twinkle-twinkle lil star..how i wonder wat u are..~
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6:17 PM :)
Friday, February 8, 2008
dear bloggy..
i m gg to be philosophical at the moment so juz bear wif me k.
u noe, sumtimes i hate guys soooo much dat i cant imagine having to live life wif one of these idiots forever.
but sumtimes, i juz cant help being grateful that i haf met sum really gd guys in life.
for eg, abg remy and abg raden..they haf been wif me thru thick and thin and though sumtimes we haf disagreements, we still stick wif ea other..for eg yan, wifout him, i wudnt haf anione who cud understand me and tahan my bitchy-ness..(i wasnt born an angel k..) for dat one guy, musadiq, he really showed me that guys cud be really diff..not all guys are the same...he was the oni guy whom i had chemistry wif...he was the sweetest guy..cos he had treated me like a QUEEN gosh!! we nvr realy fought..but it ended in despair..i m nvr gonna forget him lar..ishk..
and well..
sum f***ers muz exist in my life..and thanks for ur appearance..it helps me to realise how f***ed up this world is.
THANKS AR K!!! u will be damned for the whole of my life!
haiiiz..
i really hope i can find dat one guy..who can gif me dat same feeling mus gave me...i noe its like asking for a lot..but wat is alot?
lemme list to u wat i want in a guy..
and ponder abt it aites?
i want a guy that:
- accepts me for who i am
- understands me (meaning when i say i dunnoe, no and i dun like..dun ever f***ing force me to..)
- cares for me
- loves me..(i tell u its two diff things between love and care..check out the dictionary aites..)
- has a stable life..or..has planned for the future..(cos i hate cock ups..)
i dun tink i haf aniting else lar..cos everyting else is lyk a repetition..so tell me..isit too much to ask for?
if it is. correct me.
i noe. i m mere human. so well..
my miserable-ness cudnt even be cured by my training juz now..
i tried so hard to concentrate..but i felt like killing dat fucker juz now..
ARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!
k..k..relax babes..rmb everything he taught juz now..dun forget k..train summore..prove to blardy freaking idiots u r not any plain idiot..
ok..
k..k..
wanna go off now and cry..
diana..
*twinKLes
*aiyayay..i m ur lil' social butterfly..green black and blue and yellow is the colour of my bruises..~
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8:41 PM :)
dear bloggy..
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8:41 PM :)
Thursday, February 7, 2008
dear bloggy..
sumtimes i feel sooo left out..
i wanna be in dikir barat tooo!!! but i cant..cos i m juz sooo super-busy wif all my commitments in sp..i noe u guys meant well when syaz said dat i can mayb join her dikir..but well babes..i m sooo freaking busy now..
but like i say...
i will meet wif u guys again before i go india k babes...
and finally..i m gg to talk abt my overseas trip to india for the biotech project..(if u cud say its biotech..)
Dr E told us on monday dat we wud be gg to a village called Sevapur located in Dindigul, a state in Tamil Nadu. we'll be collaborating wif Gandhigram Rural University and the different kinds of tasks we are allocated are: setting up the library and computers, reading to the students there and building a gas plant and greenhouse. i tink dats all.hehe. and dats how we are gg to fill up two wks there..the last four days wud be SHOPPING!! ahahax..like yeah rite..
i dunnoe wat to bring for everything..wat clothes to wear, etc2..but wat i noe is..its gonna be hot..and i m gg to get a hp for the sake of keeping in touch wif ppl here...and i dun care..i wanna get a camera fon!! unless..sumting can be worked out wif my parents..hehehe..
wat else to update abt?
did i say dat i keep tinking abt HIM?
haiz....i keep saying i haf let him go..but i cant..i tink...
haizzz...
diana..
*twiNKLes
*shredded to bits and mashed to pulp.
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8:10 PM :)
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
dear bloggy..
i didnt update abt wat happened yest rite?
aites..i'll update abt bth todae and yest...
ahahaax..
yest met
ADAM for lunch.
he is a cool and nice guy. and i like him. hahaz. he was sweet and funny, and tried so hard for me to look at him. but too bad. i didnt. for dat one hr and a half, i avoided all his gaze, glances, tried to look at me full in the face. told ya i was shy. nvr believed me? u got it. hehe.
ahahax..
then..in the evening, met my other bestie!!! NADHIRAH!! i miss u alot lar babes!!!
she was the babe dat i haf known since i was in nursery and was the one i had been studying wif till late at nite..she was my gossip member in mengaji and heck..since she had started working, we havent been seeing ea other dat much..and yest was the opprtunity to share our lives!!! and hell..we took abt 2 hrs to share abt everything dat we cud tink abt. i talked to her abt my failed relationship, my sch life..and hmm..my future love life..(if i haf any..hehe..) and vice versa. but she had lots more to share..and yeah..it was a great time! i cant wait for more meetings together babes!!
miss ya lots!!
and todae....
met up again wif
ADAM as i was on my way to mit syaz!! my other bestie!! hehehe..
and hehe..todae i was much okay wif him..not dat shy like yest..and he made sum really cute+sarcastic remarks..and heck..i had to leave him suddenly when i didnt see syaz at the platform..poor him! he then called syaz and waited at admiralty..hehe..
thanks for waiting..
and then..aft met wif syaz at wdlds platform, took the train and met him again..
and he wasnt dat shy wif syaz..cos....he kept giving sum remarks abt watever i was talking abt..hahax...mayb he likes syaz...(lyk erm..dat babe is prettier than me!! hehe..) and then we(syaz and me..) made a last min decision to go to novena! ahahax..
left him then we go ard2 in the shopping mall..not dat boring..but tiring..
den we msged fina and met her!!! heehehe..and so...the 3 besties met up wif ea other..
aft a long time q-ing up for the food in the freaking LJS, we ate and shared stories..sumtimes we talk abt the past..wif failed frenships..etc2..but heck it, we had a great time together!! and i miss ya again!! heheh..but the story didnt end there..instead at syaz's hse where we surfed the net before trying out her wii..ahahax..
had to say gdbye to them..but babes..we'll see ea other soon..
before i fly off k babes..
hehe..
wat else eh?
no training todae..so it was boring..
but well..
my plans for the hols is to lose 5 kg and...to haf a clearer complexion...hehehe..
dats all i think..hehe..
soo all the best to me..
and ciaoz everyone!!
take care..
diana..
*twiNKLEs
* are u gg to be the new person in my life?
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7:46 PM :)
Monday, February 4, 2008
dear bloggy..
hahax..thanks to the new tagger..ahahax..i didnt noe outside ppl read my blog...cos i noe its boring..hehe..summore wif the trance/techno song..mcm irritating..ahahax..
and yeah..like i said the competition was REALLY KEWL!!! though i didnt really talk to any tp ppl..i do noe dat they are frenly lar..ahahax..(juz by serving them lunch..) wakakakaka..
hope dat we can collaborate more in the future and well..semoga silaturrahim makin dieratkan during ivp..
ahahahax..
wat else eh?
oohhh..did i comment abt the bdae BBQ????
ahahahax..k..well..it didnt really go according to plan cos the weather didnt cooperate..
but ahahahx..
i had fun..
hehehe..
i met wif MOOOSSSTTT of my sec sch frens aka mostly np squadmates..and hell..i miss u guys soo!!! i missed all the mepeks we had!! ahahax..
sumtimes i haf to really count my blessings..cos i haf two KEWL grps of frens!! one, wif syaz, fina, inessa..and the other wif sufy,zaya, nad, wiwi, dewi, jann, anum, isssshhhkkk..too many to list down!! ooohhh!! i also forgot the 2 new grps to my circle of frens..my polymates, aqilah, syak,isma and kaya...u guys are the best and finally my silatmates!! u guys always make my day during silat trainings..but hahax..i think we are getting closer as the days go by..
seriously, poly life is fun-ner than in sec sch.hehehe..sorry to say dat..
i really LURP U ALL LARRRRR!!
u make my life really worthwhile..
and i am esp touched when yest u guys approached me thinking i had a prob...no lar babes..i wasnt emo-ing..juz having a heart-to-heart talk lar..
and to the bdae gal..i noe u must be esp happy when he came rite? ahahax..
"eh..i noe u...u are delima ayu rite?" he asked."yesh. and i noe u..ahahahax..i m diana.."i ans.."ooh..ya..dai-ya-na..." he said."and u are the oni person who rmbers me as delima ayu and calls me dai-a-na..its diana lar..ahahax..." i ans.and the conversation went dead.
ahahahax..
heys..watever it is, the bdae party was an eye-opener..
i met a childhood fren, realised dat i cant bbq and i suck at it, noe dat watever it is, my frens will always be by my side and for the rest, diana is juz one helluva girl yg kemepekannya sum ppl cannot take it..heehehehhe...
hmmmm...
also..to dat person..
diana gembira kerana dpt meluahkan segalanya kpd awk..and dat awk dpt menjelaskan kpd diana..diana harap persahabatan kita dpt berkekalan..dan jika ada jodoh, insya'allah k awk..
i wont doubt u animore.
i m sorry.
hmmmmm...
wat else leeehhhhh???
ishk..
i tink i gtg for now..
cari ilham and then update..ehehehheehhe...
k..k..
gtg now..
ciaoz..
diana..
*twinKLEs
*i tot dat it was locked and stolen. but i guess, u found the key.
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9:30 PM :)
Saturday, February 2, 2008
dear bloggy...
todae was the friendly match between sp and tp..
and well..i haf to say dat although my silat mates could haf done better, i noe dat they were ULTIMATELY great!!! hehehe..
and i m proud of u all..and i noe i shud haf participated in it..and i m ashamed of myself too..
but i m juz too scared and nervous...i m juz sooo afraid dat i might cock up..
hhhhaaaaaiiiixxxxx...
niwaes, the posting results for the new commitee is out!!
and guess wat????
i was chosen as the new SECRETARY!! cud u believe it?
and the reason was becos, i had said dat i had wanted to be in the committee..(but did i? i cant rmb leh..mayb u guys mixed it up wif mls fo camp..ahahax..) , participated in the silat camp..(where they were scouting for the new committee..) and lastly...cos i haf internet connection at home..(kruk-kruk...)
niwaes, thanks everyone...
i accept the role and hope dat i cud do a gd job in the yr to come...i wont cock up like wat i did when i was in npcc...
and yeah...
A HAPPY FABULOUSTICALLY AWESOME 18TH BDAE SUFIANAAAA!!!!!
hehehehehe...
though i noe ur bdae was sucky, tmr is gonna be a BLAST!!
no more tears babes..
i dun like dat u noe..
and well...
this para goes to whoever the person think is referred to..
i think finally i am able to let u go.
i dunnoe how am i supposed to wait when i dun even noe of the future to come.
i juz cudnt bear to go thru another emotional breakdown.
i m juz not the same old diana dat most noe.
i haf changed so much dat i dunnoe my real self animore. it takes a lot to understand myself.
and i dunnoe whether i can accept u back when the day comes.
its been so long. and it was alot of tears and pain wasted.
i am sorry.
and this other para goes to another person..
knowing u might juz be another illusion.
it might juz bring more pain than happiness.
i dunnoe u well though i haf to admit i like u.
i juz dunnoe. and u are hiding alot from me.
why? dun i deserve to noe?
mayb u are juz the same lyk every other guys.
i am sorry i m stereotyping.
u guys haf nvr proved to me aniting.
never.
and i m not putting up animore hopes.
may the problems juz end.
amin.
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preparations to india otw.
escaping into responsibilities so as to forget the personal prons.
and well..for all dat will miss me.
pls dun.
pls juz pray for my safe gg and coming back.
always rmbered.
diana.
*twinKLes
*baring my heart open was the death sentence to me.
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10:06 PM :)
