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Saturday, May 31, 2008
dear bloggy..
i dunoe hu in the world is talking abt me. i noe i might be a bitch, slut, whore, and such. and i noe freinds are getting tired of this. do u all think i like it like one bit? i might complain abt guys and such, but u ppl noe dat i cant live wifout frens. i guess i haf to grow up summore and be matured. ppl can hate me for alot of reasons. and i think its spreading around wifout me knowing abt it. i guess, i just haf to face to it. and i guess the biggest thing to do is change. up to u guys whether to accept me or not. i am just happy that i still haf Him wif me. I might not show it, but yeah. i believe in it.
thanks to all those who have been wif me thru these trying times. thanks alot.
diana..
*twinKLES
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8:05 PM :)
Friday, May 30, 2008
dear bloggy..
andddd...HOLIDAYS have started!! finallyyy...the time to catch up wif everything..everyday is like planned out already..but for those who are likeee...wanting to meet me..just msg me okayy..ahahx...but dun expect a reply...dun have the money to top up...ahahx..
so well..
cant wait for my CHALET tmr!! hehe..its for the weekends..so pls, dun expect me to like check online aites? so well..
PPL..ENJOY URSELVES. ONI FOR A SHORT TIME!! den MST..ahahx..
hehe..
so dats wat i am gonna do..
enjoy for the next few days..then study..study, study...gonna study wif the rest of my fwens!! ahahax...i really dun care lar..at least no ivp so can study! hehe...
but cant wait...for IVP too..
next week..at RP! hehe..
ohklaaar..
and u noe..just now i was punched and kicked..by a freshie pai melayang seyyy..ahahax..
it was sooo embarrassing and funny...
ahahx...and i pity that freshie lar..
he apologised alot of times seyyy..ahahx..
nvm everyone..i am OKAY!! hehehe..
diana..
*twinKLEs..
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10:42 PM :)
Thursday, May 29, 2008
dear bloggy..
haf u ever heard of the saying: life always brings on the unexpected...
but well..most of us take dat lightly..
ahahx..
i feel as though, life is like..testing me..testing my perseverance to nonsense-ness, stress-ness and all ness's that fall in the category of life unexpected-ness...
(hehe..tkder keje..)
its likee.....sch is still stressful..but manageable..silat is mounting to the peak of excitement, with the coming competition and of course..my personal, social life..
ahahx..
but actually, socially, no problems...have made more frens den i wish to count and well..a number of guys too ar..tp as usual, no strings attached..
ahahx..
and well..what wif him gone to India, i was shocked when another guy whom i had tot had moved on, chatted wif me and told me of his mistakes..to believe or not?
the same question..well..give him the benefit of doubt lar...
ahahx..
niwaes, tmr is abg mamat's bdae!!
he is older by a yr!!
HAPPY 2_th bdae!! hehehe..(i actually forgot..hehehe..apenye adik angkat kan?)
may all ur wishes come true, be happy always, get ur ms rite asap, get married soon..so ur lovely adik ni can haf an anak sedare angkat!! hehehe...
and i hope u enjoy and take care of urself when u are gg for the cruise okay?
miss u lar..
and..
oh well..cant wait till..HOLIDAES!!
hehe...
less than 24 hrs!!!
diana..
*twinKLEs..
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9:50 PM :)
dear bloggy..
can i say sumting? i m getting kinda irritated wif ppl who keep msging me and calling me like....everyday...to ask me abt myself...its not dat i dun like...its just dat...i am not using bill for my hp..i am using prepaid..and well..i am topping it up myself..yet i am not working...so ple..be considerate..dun expect me to pick up ur call or to reply u promptly..
seriously, i use my hp for more serious matters..for eg when i nid to ask my frens or family members, i dun mind using the fon..but if its just sum random guy who is bored and got nth to do..and keep msging me likemore than 4 times just cos i dun reply..its irritating..and well...can still ask me why i nvr top up..duuhhh...no money how to topup...stupid qsn get stupid ans...ahahax...
and yeah..to nash and opy..i am sorry but i am a helluva egoistic biatch..i wont msg u if u dun msg me..like..why shud i msg u? u guys are my guy frens..not my bf..for goodness sakes...i dun want u guys to have the wrong thinking dat i like u lar...yeahhh..i might like u..but i wont tell u..
but u noe...
i realised i am being selfish and unfair..
to not give others chances...well..others have made the mistake and that mistake made me hate guys for some unknown reason..as in..hate to be hitched to one guy...but..i shudnt make the history as a reason for me to hurt others since they are the one suffering now..
and yeah..i haf to trust them sumhow..cant just keep running away from my fears...
hmmmm....so wan..tell me more abt urself..as long as i dun feel threatened, i will talk to u..but sorry..wont be giving u my num for now..
hmmmmmm..again eh...to hafidz and zul..pls..u guys are like irritating lar seyyy...asik take turns to call and msg me and ask the SAME FREAKING question! urgh. and i hate it when u say that: adehal ar diana. pls come online. and when i did, what did i noe..its just to tell me abt the nite cycling..i tot apeeee je lar..u can always msg me kan..u are rich pe..unlike me...URGH!
and i am TOTALLY BROKE now.
really. cant believe it? check my wallet. totally zilch money! urghhhh.
diana..
*twinKLes
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10:36 AM :)
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
dear bloggy..
to wan..
ohkayy..u wanna chance, i give u a chance..but i really nid to noe who are ur homies?
and well..i wont be unfair and selfish animore..
thanks bacins for reminding me!!
diana..
*twinKLEs
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10:56 PM :)
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
dear bloggy!!!
like finally...HE talked to me!!! not my ex, okay....but another HE whom i have been eyeing for the past sem..hehehe...
like...he chatted wif me when i was in class lar seyy..
he asked me questions so suddenly that i got shocked..but now i dun feel awkward to talk wif him animore!!!
yeah yeah!!!
HAPPY-HAPPY!!! heheheheh...
diana..
*twiNKLEs
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10:47 PM :)
Monday, May 26, 2008
dear bloggy,
and whenever i am in deep shyt, he will be back. heylo mike..u caught me in a bad time..
ahahx...mayb u are my alter ego..like when i feel depressed and such...u suddenly appear wif those devil's horns and tail..and poison my mind wif negative tots..
oh well..
i cant be bothered..
at the moment, other things matters..
like the upcoming IVP. i might oni be there as a supporter, but i will support as though i myself am in the gelanggang...and well..
to all my PESILATS..MAJU SP!! Bring honour to our poly aites? Get gold medals!! ahahax..and may the injuries be as minimum as possible..
school is ending in less than a wk..and i am left with 2 tests...and one project...so well..currently, i am excited for the coming weekends but at the same time, i dread for those tests..so well..have to face them still kan?
ahahax..
and so HE went away. leaving me here. so what rite? i have others to take care of me. i dun nid him animore. he just made my cry after giving me the happiness that i craved.
oh no. i can take care of myself. no one can love me more than myself. ahax.
and i dun care abt any other critics cos u noe wat, frens give me support and hope.
btw, to those who want to see the funny silat, check out: http://spsilat.multiply.com
diana...
*twinKLES
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11:28 AM :)
Friday, May 23, 2008
dearest bloggy..
actually, i am really sorry for not updating dat much abt my life at the moment..
too busy lar..
too busy until major happenings in the world also i cant type out..
but bloggy..
u noe..i cant believe it, 4 different guys who know me differently actually said dat i am pretty (lawa actually..) one of them is Zul..the guy i know from Mendaki, another one is, Helmi, who supported wat Zul said when i told him of the story..btw, Helmi doesnt know Zul and he is my schmate...3rd is Hafidz..Zul's fren who wanted to get to know me and lastly is Nash..another guy fren of mine..
Erm..actually for the last 2 guys i dun really believe wat they told me but when two diff guys who haf met me before actually said dat, i kinda felt good..u cant blame me rite? well..if its just thru chatting of cos i dun care bulshit abt it...ahahax..
Furthermore these two guys are frens of mine..FRIENDS...thats why i think it means more..ahahahx...
hehehe..
well..wat else ar..
oh ya..my first sem is coming to an end in abt 2 a wk's time...cepat kan? ahahax..but well..had my first quiz today..and i didnt think i did quite well..haiiixxxx...
but i haf to buck up for the rest..
to think abt it, i haf one portfolio to do...one project to finish...and alot of studying to do..
ahahahx...and thank god i am not joining for this yr's silat competition..if not i would be busier..but i still have meetings to attend and tasks to do..oh well..haf to do good time management...
ahahax..watever it is, i know that having a bf at this moment is a bad move..a very bad move..so well..i guess..i still wanna be how i am now..
hehehehe..
i dun wanna headache, heartache...everything that aches larrrr...
ahahax..
I AM A LONELY BIYATCH BUT I AM HAPPY OKAY? ahahax.
diana..
*twINKLes
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5:41 PM :)
Monday, May 19, 2008
dear bloggy..
I MISS SUFY!! and well..all my besties ar...I MISS SYAZ, FINA, erm...INESSA, alahaaaiii..if i typed out every name kan..penuh post aku ni..hehehe..
BUT I MISS ALL OF U LARRRR..
i miss hanging out wif u guys..esp sufy..cos we always spend time together kan..kan..kan?
ishhkkk..
stop being dramatic ar diana.
ohk..well..
some updates, the SILAT CAMP was a BLAST!!
although i was oni there for the first night and the last day of the camp, i enjoyed myself..i enjoyed bonding wif my juniors and being there wif my members..but i think, i could haf done better in doing my job as a committee member..and i promise, i would do better..(thanks azhar for the pep talk! hehe..)
i esp enjoyed the skits (funny silat..)...
"tiba-tiba...aku jatuh cinta...OUHHHHH...OUHHH..."
hehee...if i haf any videos and pics, i will upload them..ehehe..
and well..the MENDAKI event, it was cool too!! i love explaining the puzzles and the illusions to both kids and parents..hehehe..it was sooo COOL lar dat some of the simplest puzzles even adults dunnoe how to do..hehehe...and i made two new frens!! their name is ZUL and HAFIZ..from ite and poly respectively..
ahahx...they initially tot dat i am 21 lar sey!! ahahx..
sooo funny..and when we hang out by the beach during my break, we talked abt alot of things and they teased me alot..sadly..i was too tired lar..ahahx...cos dah shagged sgt..aft rushing form sch to east coast..duuhhh..hehehe..
but they are really nice PPL tau!! thanks for being nice fwens!!
hehehe..
oklahhh..now i gtg..cos i haf to finish up sum things..
gtg now..
LOVE U ALL!!
diana..
*twinkLEs
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9:39 PM :)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
dear bloggy..
aku nk die balik. aku tk nk die tinggalkan aku lagi. aku tk nk rasa keseorangan lagi. aku dah tk nk nafikan yg kdg2 aku rindu nk ade teman istimewa. tapi aku takut jugak ar. agaknye tu psl skrg aku masih ragu2 nk keluar dgn mana2 laki. ahax. aku tahu aku mmg tk kesiankn those yg betul2 ikhlas. tapi manelah aku tahu kan? sume manusia mempunyai topeng di mana aku tk dpt lihat menembusi topeng itu.. jadi bukankah lebih baik mereka dilukai dari melukai hatiku yg mmg sediakala sudah dilukai...
diana..
*twinKLEs..
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8:47 PM :)
Thursday, May 8, 2008
dear bloggy..
am happy abt yest..cos yest kan..before silat training, i had like..u noe...a heart-to-heart talk wif a few of my close frens..and i even get to meet one of my close frens in sch too!! happy lar sey yati..lepas berbulan tk jumpe kauuuu...akhirnya terubat rindu aku..hehehe....
and yeaaahhhh!! i really love talking wif u...sumtimes its such a wonder how u can get to noe me soooo well..padahal we get to noe each other during the sweet MI times..hehehe..and yeaaahhhh..aku pemalu kan? hehe..tu psl kau rase aku bbl lebih dari kau kann...hehehe..
thannnnkkksss a zillllliiiiooonnn to my beloved Aqilah...thanks for the heart-to-heart talk wif ya..hehehe..it seriously lifted up my mood yg mmg sediakala always troubled..hehe..sumtimes..seeing u in sch aje is enuf to make me smile and feel happy for the whole day...
and also to kayathiri...my sch life wont ever be the same if u are not beside me..hehe..yeahhh..i know that we got close because of the trip to India..but still sch life aint the same if are not my partner for everything..and u always lend an ear to allllll my problems..and hehe..u know my secrets of those whom i like..(which is like obvious...dddduuuuhhh...) hehehehe...
and to Nad...i really miss hanging out wif u...busy lar babes..really2 sorry..but meeting u just now was really good..walaupun sekejap pun...we got to talk wif ea other..pour out all my probs..and u understand watever i am gg thru..esp abt my social life and my commitments...thanks for making me realise time and again that i can be happy the way i am now..hehe..
and talking abt blessings i haf now...
i am grateful that i am living in a stable country..unlike those that are now barely surviving in Myanmar following the unexpected cyclone..i cant donate any monetary or any items at the moment..but well..i'll pray for u guys okay? dun ever give up tau...
(issshhhkkk..diana bbl mcm phm..hehehe..)
and thennn kannn...
as i was talking to nad just now abt my social life and abt my commitments kan..
i realised that once i had blogged abt my happiness having frens and my family and well..every blessing that i haf, i had said dat having a boyfren was a bonus blessing cos he just made my life complete..but not having him doesnt mean dat i wud die larrr..cos well.here's the evidence..i am still here alive and kicking...hehehe..
okaaaylllarrr..dah mule mepek ni..ngantuk arr..
hehehe..
diana..
*twinKLes
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10:23 PM :)
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
dear bloggy...
am hyper cos it was EC day!! hehehe..yest saw my ECs oh and today too!! hehehehe...yeahyeah!! i am going gaga over such guysss...WHHHHYYYY???
hehe..but it keeps me sane..cos i noe i can nvr ever get them lar..so i feel humbled..hehehe..
okaaaayyy....
so wat else eh? one report down many more to go!! but i was kinda satisfied with the report so well..happy lar kan..and also, my practical just now was reallllyyy cooll..i dun really hate MR goh animore lar..but he is irritating..and he noes dat..hehehe...and wat else eh? yest's biostats test was good! i passed! and dats all that matters!! hehehe..
diana is a very happy-happy-happy girl!! and though i might be thinking abt sum things negatively, i am still happy..no more worries for those who care abt me...
sooooo...
just gearing up for silat...tk nk larr asik give up sikit2 je...lame2 org meluat lah..ahahax..
oklah everyone...
am gonna look forward to tomorrow!!!!!
diana..
*twinkLEs..
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9:24 PM :)
Sunday, May 4, 2008
dear bloggy..
like a butterfly,
it started out as an ugly and disgusting piece of creature..
life is not easy as an ugly creature.
easily overlooked or eaten as a defenceless prey..
yet, after metamorphosis, it still has to be strong..
it has to struggle to get out of its tight cocoon..
before being able to spread its wings and begin a new life..
as a beautiful creature..
i am not gonna be easily defeated by such things in life..
lau skrg aku tak tahan, ape lagi bile aku keje kan? ahahhax...
gonna take it slow and i am gonna lessen my stress..
cos it doesnt oni affect me..but also those who love me..
thanks to all my girlfriends, boyfriends...LOVE U ALL TO BITS!!
alhamdulillah for the kind of frens dat i haf...
hehehe..
k..k..
haf to do my own work now..
gtg..
diana..
*twiNKLEs..
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9:16 PM :)
Saturday, May 3, 2008
dearest bloggy...
yest was equally fun and equally disappointing for me..for one thing, the freshies were really great and i really love seeing their eagerness to join in our trainings..really hope to see them always in the next few trainings..and well..for our training, it was really strenuous cos mainly, talha and irfan were focusing on power and speed..and for me, it was really tiring lar..i am used to just doing seni..tapi tkpelah..it was REALLY a GREAT training!! love u all to bits..
tapikann..
i was very terkilan when its like..i feel as though sum of the pesilats dun even haf faith in me doing my job..kalau korg tak suke aku buat kerje aku..u can always change the secretary kan? seriously..the sarcastic remarks sumtimes are too painful to take in..but u noe wat? u guys wont ever see me shed any tears..senang aje..i will quit..if its wat u guys are asking for..i will...no worries..
and well..the coming camp clashes wif two major events laaaarr....and i am having a fit over it...why? cos well...zul said dat i am impt for the camp so i shud go..and for the mendaki Atomatik event, i haf already volunteered myself a LONG time ago..i feel bad if last minute back out kan? and thennnnn...on the 18th ..i am having my madrasah exams for 2 subjects..tk stress ke? tell me? HAIIIIXXXX...
and well..if i miss silat camp, i wont be able to join ivp too!! cos i dun want to join tanding..and i cant join seni cos we are sending oni one team which is not my team..yeahhhh..i noe dat my seni is not perfect at all..
and seriously..i dun feel like myself animore..nowadays i easily get worked up over small-small things...and it sux..i love being that happy diana yg jarang nk mrh2..always available to help others..and well..stress-free...ahaahhax..mcm betul..tp skrg lainnnn...
nowadays..i always haf the feeling that i am an utter failure..i cant do my job right..my studies aint that good too...i cant be a good sister, friend...much less a gf...thats y i am really sticking to being single..i am sick of all those lame shits hu say that they love me and such..guys..get this rite: u love my pics. not me. the real me.
tell me..what did i do wrong in life? well. i guess i haf the answer.
and thanks to that person hu said i was perasan. cos i wasnt. and it hurt me way too much. jgn sampai aku benci kau k. but dun tink u wud even be reading this blog lar.
haix.
diana..
*twiNKLEs
*aku nk lari tapi tkleh. kenape. aku nk nangis tp tkleh. kenape.
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7:56 AM :)