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Thursday, July 31, 2008
dear bloggy..
now is like the prime time to freak out and just cry..
what wif all the deadlines looming and not enuf time to just finish it all up..
its not dat i cant do time management..but its seriously not enuf time..
my report which has to be done in a grp is the most troublesome..cos since we dun hang out together, we cant seem to find a slot dat is the most convenient for us..
in the end, we discuss the lunch during lunch and such..
really2 troublesome..
and i got my results for BCT and i failed.
though i expected dat, but i am totally disappointed cos i studied..and i really2 studied..not like in the past in which i study as i play..
now when i mean study, i really did.
HAIX.
and enuf wif dat problem, i haf other problem to handle..esp the hp prob..
cant contact anione at the time and dat mat who is responsible pun asik busy..
NAK AJE AKU MAKI MUKE DIE!! but its partly my fault too..
so pls yan, respect me okay.
i helped u at least amek kisah okay.
urgh. FCUK LAR.
and abg mamat is bugging me again. and i tell u, no one understands the prob dat yan is facing thru and they also dun understand the prob and the reason why i helped him..
guess wat? dat bugs me. i wish dat one day if u are in his shyt, u wud not ask anione's help.
URGH.
finished complaining.
just want to be alone.
no use making promises if it aint fulfilled k..*this is referring to guy I and guy M.
u guys can go in the dumps wifout pulling me too!
take care!!
diana..
*twinKLEs
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11:45 AM :)
Sunday, July 27, 2008
dear bloggy..
i was reading thru one of my old diary..and one entry really made me think about myself..
this diary was written during the period when i was working at Watson's..so i had alot of time to think..ahahx...
here goes:
how would you like to be remembered?
as a girl that has achieved most in her life..this is because i wanna die young..i dun wanna be a burden to anione...i want ppl to rmb me as that unique gal..not really smart and not really bad..a lil' crazy, very manja, swit and caring..i hope i haf made my parents proud, i had taken really good care of my siblings and that my guy and my exs haf had enuf of my love...urm...dat shud be all..
(14/12/2006)
and...
this sajak..
di akhir pementasan ini
tirai ditutup
sepi menggamit suasana
aku duduk termenung seketika
sepintas lalu
memori demi memori
indah dan pahit
memnuhi ruand fikiranku
biarpun ianya hanyalah
tinggal kenangan bagiku
akanku simpan
buat selamanya
sebagai iktibar
maafkan diriku..
*actually i dunnoe why i said the maafkan ku part there...so ahahx..
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niwaes...
guess wat?
i finally met my newest baby cuz just now!! cos there was the cukur rambut ceremony..
and most of my cuz's were there..
esp haikal and gang whom i havent met for quite some time..
alot of jokes were shared..and i had lots of fun, laughter and food!
hehehe..
my adik2 sedare eh..all grew to be taller and bigger than me...and now ur big sister, Kak Nana is shorter and smaller rite..but dun play2 okay..i smack u den u all noe! ahahx..
and here are the pics i haf of Baby Syakil!! hehehe..
i look like a proud mother rite? =)
uhuh..i noe..i am very happy..
CUTE KANNNN!!! hehehe..
ESPECIALLY THIS PIC!! hehehe...
okay..so u haf seen him rite?
lets see how he is 18 yrs down the road! hehe.. i'll be 36 by then..aahhax..
diana..
*twinKLEs
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9:31 PM :)
Saturday, July 26, 2008
dear bloggy..
I turned down a guy last Thursday cos I didnt think dat we cud be together though he had promised to change..
I am sorry..but I dun want to be miserable and unhappy cos i know that we just cant work things out..
and yeah..I wud rather hurt u now than later...
I need time to get to noe u, to really know u..not just to share probs and feelings..
I need to trust u..cos i hate to regret later..
and I need u to understand me..I have alot of diff wif u..and I wish to change for the better..I want to bury that old diana from ever being exposed again..and i need u to understand dat..so u wont ever make me turn into that old diana..
I dun ever wish to.
and the probs that is bothering me for the past few wks is really taking a toll on me..
so, I hope u can accept why I did what I did and please, just move on without me.
To others who have been getting all the attention from me, I mean guys, please, that Diana would not last long..so please be prepared..
Thanks.
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My exams are coming and all I have to do is revise, study and pray for the best..I hope I wont disappoint myself again..
Oh and I am so sorry I cant be serious during silat training..I have to laugh rather than I cry in pain..
ahahax..
And I hope that the plans for the upcoming Night Cycling would be a success..Insya'allah..
And to all my friends..those who are close to me or not,
All the best for your upcoming tests and exams..PLEASE REVISE AND STUDY..put aside other unnecessary stuff for now..
diana..
*twinKLEs
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11:51 AM :)
Thursday, July 24, 2008
dear bloggy..
i hate it whe i have probs, and everyone else in the world have problems. but u cant run away from it can u? ahahax.
me, as usual will always feel like helping others out. but well, sumtimes u screw up big-time. and then u regret and it will become another problem. tell me, why am i soooo like this?
urgh.
okay. i haf to get back to my work but i just had to type sumthing here lar.
take care..
diana..
*twiNKLEs
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9:58 PM :)
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
dear bloggy..
It seems that He works in really mysterious ways which no one could decipher the reasons why He does it that way..
The reasons why i am saying so is because of a few incidents that had happened in the last few weeks.
In the past few weeks, I have stumbled upon old acquaintances from primary school, old admirers (ahahax.) and acquaintances who are somehow acquainted with friends of mine. It just made me wonder why I met them.
And the normal problems such as BGR, family and friends are never-ending. But somehow, there is always someone for me to confide in. For me to just console myself and get encouragement to just face the world and the problems face on. I always have to remind myself that there is always a possibility for me to get more heart-wrenching problems as time goes by. (lyk duh. i am oni 17 gg on to 18. what major probs do u expect me to compare wif those adults?) I also have to always remind myself that whatever problems i am facing, there is this ONE person who will never ever leave me whatever happens. and that is Him.
There is a reason for everything that has happened. I might not know what are the real reasons for them but maybe He wants to remind me that there are always someone out there who remembers me and will. Maybe He wants me to think on the positive side and to never forget Him. Maybe he wants me to be strong and face the problems on bravely.
Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.
Whatever it is, I would not let these problems to hamper my happiness.
Never. Although I might shed tears and have headaches over them.
Anyways, thanks my dearest Inessa for your advice and encouragement. (Yes, I know. I should be thankful yang dia masih balik dan masih meluangkan masa bersama kita.)
Seriously, I cannot wait until my besties finish their A's then we could spend alot of time together. Though I know that Ness might not be here with us, but u are always remembered. We will count the days until you get back here! (holidays maybe. hehe.)
Hmm..
Last Friday, got back my Applied Microbiology paper. I PASSED!! unbelievably! hehe..i though i had failed lar...
and last Sunday, got back my madrasah results. I PASSED TOO!! and quite good in fact..ahahx..
Alhamdulillah.
Last Saturday, went out wif besties to Boon Lay CC for a Bulan Bahasa Event organised by my alma meter, BPGHS. The whole thing was quite disappointing as I had expected a more organised event. It was quite..unorganised and I find that there are not enough volunteers to help out with the event. (dah tk cukup BPians kape???) and the performance by the Malay Literature students did not seem to get through to the PRIMARY SCH students. (ahahax.) I hope that this event would serve as a reminder and also a stepping stone for future students and events.
and Hmmmm..
Two days ago it was Racial Harmony Day. I could still remember those times when I go to school in my traditional costume to celebrate that day. It was one of those days which I look forward to alot. It was a day to show off your 'nicest' traditional costume. Sadly, it only happened in primary school, not in my secondary school. But guess what? On Monday, I actually wore a kebaya(though with jeans instead of the kain..) and it felt good. It felt good to be different. People might comment rude, nasty remarks, but I don't mind. Cause I was happy.
And I get to spend time with Abg and Ibu and Papa. (Now I know where my godbro got his looks from. ahahx.) and Boboy was cute but very restless. (btw, Boboy is a pet parrot.)
Lastly...Hmm..
now I treasure my family more and would love to spend more time with them. You never know when those memorable happy times with your family might end. It's better not to regret and feel sorry right?
Thanks to all those who are giving me alot of encouragement during these very trying times.
and I will smile, Syaz! =)))
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10:15 PM :)
Saturday, July 19, 2008
dear bloggy...
i dunnoe why but suddenly the moodswing reigns.
so here goes:
Lepaskanlah genggaman tanganmu
Pergilah dia menantimu
Jangan menangis..
Janganlah kau menoleh ku lagi
Biarlah ku membawa diri
Jangan kau tanya ke mana ku pergi..
an excerpt from a song..
so u noe my mood rite?
ahahx.
dunnid to ask cos the mood will pass..hehehe..
diana..
*twinKLEs
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5:22 PM :)
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
dear bloggy..
yesterday i was supposed to have one practical and well..since i had to finish a report which is supposedly to hand in on that day, i had come earlier before practical to finish it..
halfway thru..
guess wat? my ever-so-responsible class rep msged me and said:
Class 03 rep said that there is no practical today, so there is no lesson for the day.How blarrrdyy is dat? ahahx. i was like, rushing thru my report and suddenly he said that class is cancelled. All my well-laid plans were screwed up, since i had made a date with my god-bro to come over to his workplace after class. so, since class is cancelled, i had 3 hours free before meeting him. ahahx..
In the end, i made a last-minute date wif....Syaz!! hehehe..
i met up wif her at her schgate ..*thanks for the payung k babes! hehe.* and it was raining..(actually this part is VERY random. hehe.)
saw her friends whom i just smiled at.
and then we rode the bus to her home! after buying waffles. heh.
*syaz's home is like my home too!! kan kan? hehe..*
at her house, we just talked..and talked and talked..
and...aloooot of stories unfolded!! hehe..
and until now, i still cant believe how small is this world larr..cos well..we uncovered one secret abt sumone..*hehhehehehe..u noe, i noe kan syaz?*
so practically, i had fun at her house though now i feel guilty for not studying that much..*syaz jgn rase berslh tau. its my fault. u r NEVER a bad influence to me. its VICE VERSA. hehe.*
cos well, i got home at 9.30 hehehe..
and yeah..i cancelled my date wif my god-bro! hehe..*sorry abang..the pull of girl-talk is waaaaayyy stronger...hehe...*
To syaz,
u noe wat? i still cant believe that i oni got close to u in sec 3 yet, we understand each other much much much better than my other frens whom i haf known for a longer time..i guess, its just how frens bond as time goes by..i still haf good frenships wif others, but i guess, my frenship wif u is one of the strongest! together wif fina and inessa larrr..hehhe..
and yeah..i love girl-talk cos i always..will somehow get to noe more abt me frm u..thanks for being such an honest fren..ooohh..and ur honesty is VERY honest so thanks! hehe..i nid alot of feedback to change tau. ahahx.
ILU ok! ahahx.*hugs*
and fina!! i miss you too!
we will have a trio outing soon okay? and mayb at the beach too! korg!!! aku tak sabar tauuu until u guys finish a's and can spend more time wif me..hehehhe..
okaylllarrr..
have to stop rambling and gushing..and swooning..hehehheehehe..
*so mentel. but i noe my limit. wakakakak..*
diana..
*twinKLEs
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8:33 AM :)
Monday, July 14, 2008
dear bloggy..
my weekends were ALOTA fun!! hehehehe..
i had spend my time very usefully cos i spend it with my family and friends too!
hehe..
saturday was my dad's company's family day at the ZOO!! hehe..
we came late but who cares..i wasnt there to really gawk at every single animal rite? i was just there to check the place again..it was quite some time since i last went there..
and heckkk...the place looks different!
i nearly got lost larrr..
the place seems more crowded with more plants..(guess they wanted to make that JUNGLE feeling. creepy.hehe.) but i didnt mind dat much since i find the plants very interesting.
hehehe..
and we practically walked the whole of the zoo lar.
and if u haf walked there before, u wud noe how big it is and how tiring it is. hehe.
but i had fun chatting wif my parents, spewing all kinds of facts that i noe abt plants and animals, making jokes and well..having fun! *although my sis keep making that long face. urgh. spoiler.*
ahahx.
and sunday, met up wif sum of my silat frens for a cycling outing by the beach..hehehe..
instead of the expected 7 ppl to turn up, oni 4 made it to the beach. * uzair lah. die g tgk silat pat persisi. but nvm. hehe..*
me, zul, su and lin rented bikes for two hours and we just cycled from one end to the other..we played by the sea and just rested..
the cycling was much needed as i haf gained weight due to my laziness * though everyone said i looked the same. ahahx. bull. *
i managed to bond wif my frens too and i also had time to ponder abt other stuffs too..ahahx.
so well, it was a GREAT weekend! hehe.
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this msg is for someone.
i hate to wait and give hope.
so basically i need that assurances that all my effort are not in vain.
i am trying so hard to trust u, so hard to gain that feeling that i once had for u.
please tell me soon.
please dun hurt me animore.
and i promise i wont bother u.
i promise.
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to anione who dun like me blabbering abt all this, you are welcome to just go away.
i wont be hurt.
serious. just go and dun come back.
diana.
*twinKLes
ps: thanks sumone for that cute sumting u bought for me.
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3:27 PM :)
Saturday, July 12, 2008
dear bloggy...
yest was fun!
though i cudnt join in volunteering wif my other frens, i had fun wif my god-bro..
ahahx..
i came over to his workplace at Vivocity just ofr lunch..but instead of just lunch..i got a bonus!
i actually helped him out at his shop larrr..
cos well, the new stock just came in and there were loads of stuff to do..
hehehe...i helped in unpacking the stocks and hang the clothes up..and also to check the things on display...though i was wearing tudung, a few customers even approached me larrr...thinking i was working there..
hehehe..
i skipped silat cos i dun tink i was in my max potential fitness..
ahahx..
i kept getting coughs and breathlessness. it was really sucky cos it felt like getting an asthma attack larrr..
but well..
after helping out, me and abg went to hang out by the sea to just let him smoke awhile..listened to sum sweeeeett songs and then headed back home.
guess wat happened on the way home?
i was sitting next to abg and opp us sat this family of 3: mum, baby sister and brother.
well..the baby sister was really cute and she smiled and waved at my abg first before smiling and waving at me..
guess wat she said?
baby sister said
to mum: Mama..abang(and pointed to my abg.)
then she said
to her brother: Abang..kakak..(and pointed to me.)
and then i burst out laughing. why in the world did she pointed me out to her brother? ahahx..
niwaes, i guess..dats all for now.
for that person who wants me to change, guess what? if i changed, how in the world would you know i haf changed by being silent to me?
diana..
*twinKLEs
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11:30 AM :)
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
dear bloggy..
although today started out wet, since it was raining, but it totally made my day when on the way to school, as i was riding on my dad's bike, i saw two CD guys at the BB fire station doing sumting reallly hilarious..
since it was raining, sweeping sumting is kinda stupid since everything is wet and will clump to ea other..but that was exactly wat these pair of clowns were doing! ahahx..they were like..frantically sweeping everything up wif a broom at the courtyard..and its raining..
funny or not? ahahx..
i was like laughing all the way to school..so cute lar! ahahx..
and well..sch is much more relaxing..oni one lesson until 10 and then me and my close fwens would be studying together..
but heck it..i haf silat todae..
and though my spirit to train is there, i am just afraid dat my body cant take it..
cos although my fever had subsided, my coughs and flu are still like kinda on/off.
really sucky cos its irritating..
hmmmm..
had blog-hopped for awhile..
and like..came across sum guys's blogs..
their rantings are kinda similar..harping on their failed love lives, their behaviour of emo-ness..
hmmmm..
well..
what i was just thinking was that, ppl shud just haf that optimistism in themselves..
yeah..there might be times when u feel really down, like really2 sucky..
u shud think of the fact that there are others who are feeling worst than u..having problems or experiences greater than u..and well..still having the spirit to live and move on..
count ur blessings, appreciate them and smile..
a smile is all it takes to change ur mood.
believe it.
diana..
*twinKLEs
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9:12 AM :)
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
dear bloggy..
this is for this sumone who is very close to my heart.
if she is reading this, she would understand it like..duuhh..
babes,
do u ever wonder why i think of u like a minah? y i called u a minah one too many times?
well babes..cos i realised, u are getting very uncouth in ur behaviour and very rude towards others. even ur parents. and this is sumting which i always see in minahs and i dun want u tp be like them. u are sumone whom i love dearly right?
i might not show it. might not say it. might not even admit it. but its a fact and dat just explains why i would really like to see the old gal again.
the very sweet, innocent, darling lil sister.
hehe.
though i noe u dun like to be seen dat way, its up to u..
ur image outside doesnt mean that it has to shape ur attitude rite.
i really dun mind if u want to become emo or whatsoever lar..but rmb the values u are brought up in.
ur other sister might not show it. but u are smart enough to know what is good and bad for u rite?
think babes. think.
and i noe dat i am not dat good a sister to advice u on all this. but i am still ur sister. and i expect the same respect u give to other ppl, also to me.
niwaes, i hope dat wif me apologising to others would make ppl think twice to diss me.
u haf no right to do so.
so adios amigos.
ahahx. thanks aqilah for the tip. anf we'll learn arabic too okay?
diana..
*twinKLEs
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6:07 PM :)
Monday, July 7, 2008
dear bloggy..
hehehe..
just now i did one very bad thing. i actually skipped one lesson which i quite liked. hehe.
I skipped Biostatistics.
hehe.
But it was for a gd cause.
hehe.
Cause, i met SYAZWANI!! *babes, ur wish came true yeah? cos we did met up!*
hehehe..
yeah. we survived the flu and fever bug and our tests! *btw, CONGRATZ AGAIN FOR UR GREAT WORK FOR GP!*
hehe.
so we went to Lot1 for lunch. then we went shopping, for cosmetics and personal stuff..
and she got herself a pair of new high heel shoes that were to die for! hehe..COS I LOVE IT TOO!!
i managed to try on a few shoes *esp this very CUTE pumps!* and a few dresses..* esp one which i am REALLY gonna buy!*
then we went to CWP to find jeans and since i was having a craving of the Twister meal, we went there to buy them since Lot1 didnt sell them..ahahax..went to the bazaar to accompany Syaz buy sum stuff for her family too.
then went home.
DAMN! shud haf given u that hug since u made me feel SOOO much better! hehe..
otw home, met wif a few ppl whom i noe like Zarifah, Sufy and Haikal. That just made my day!
hehe..
cos well, sch earlier was fun too!
since during GEMS, this guy who is in my grp, acted soo cutely that i felt like laughing at him lar. ahahax.
he asked me: "is that ur diary?" "yeah. but i haf another diary at home. this is like my organiser but i tend to write aniwhere."
again he said: " so u go home then u copy it into the other diary?" "urmm.nope. lazy." *laughs*
so now, prob in GEMS is settled. got 2 cool and fun members. and cant wait till the presentation starts!
ahahx.
yeah. i noe i did a grievous mistake by skipping Biostats. So, i am gonna study now.
toodles!
diana..
*twinKLEs
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7:00 PM :)
Friday, July 4, 2008
Dear bloggy..
Alhamdulillah..
blessings from what i have studied and spend time and effort to study, i have gotten 3 results from the 5 papers that i took.
Guess what? i passed all of them! yeaaah!!
And for my plant sciences, i even got THE MOST IMPROVED RESULTS AWARD!!
happy kaper???? mestilahhh..ahahahx...
And well..for the past week, i have been bumping into old frens..
ahahx..
for eg, last tues, i bumped into Hafizul!! at food culture..sihat nampak hafizul..
hehhehe..
then yest, i bumped into Faris whom i noe from gunung ledang and madrasah..a fren of my godbro..he is kinda nice..ahahx...but well..we just talked abt not meeting ea other for long..usual stuff..
and also, when i was at the polyclinic, i met Tengku Fadli from bp..ahahx..i didnt noe dat he recognised me lar..ahahax.summore can tegur me..ahahx..
and lastly, met Faiz from bp too! another fren of tengku fadli..so funny lar..he was gg back from camp..dulu NCC..now, POLICE..hehe..the irony..
You know, i realised that this year, as much as i might lose a fren, i haf gained more frens than ever..everything happens for a reason..
Niwaes, gtg do my work now..
take care..
diana..
*twiNKLEs
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8:20 PM :)
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
dear bloggy..
when MST ended i was sooo happy!
On friday, i celebrated wif a movie at Suntec wif Fazli!! ahahx..he actually had wanted to treat me for a longggg time already lar..ahahx..
we watched: "dont mess wif the zohan" and i tell u ar..the story had aloot of inferences towards sex dat it kinda digusts me..but basically the movie was hilarious!
ahahx..
well..had planned then to go bowling wif my pesilats..but was too shagged..
sat was even more fun!
Cos well, its kaya's bdae party..she had turned 21 and so, there was a grand bdae party..hehe..
it was a Changi Beach Club and most of those who were invited were close frens..the food was superb and the games and shows were fun..
and the bdae girl was the MOST GORGEOUS of all..
i will update the pics soon..
then u can understand y i said she is gorgeous!
ehehe..
and since it ended late, a fren actually offered to send me home!
thanks for the ride home aites!
hehe..
Sunday was the first day of madrasah for the second semester..
it was okay..
but ahahx..unexpectedly i met wif my x..
after all the effort to avoid him lar..
ahahx..
and well..
now, wif sch officially open, i am getting very busy already..
but heck it lar..
i am down wif fever and flu and sore throat..
ahahx..
but still coming to sch..cos ea day not attended is alot of things wasted..
and i cant afford it if i wanna excel for this sem..
hahahx..
now i haf a clear goal.
at least i am making effort. not getting pissed off at unneccesary stuff like BGRs and friendships.
to me,
friends are forever.
even wif problems, disagreements, unhappiness, friends will be friends.
even if those friends dun think of u as a fren, they are still my friends.
think about it.
why were u my friend in the first place?
just for me to take advantage of?
just for me to haf sumone in times of nid but to forget when not in times of nid?
its because i care and trust these friends that i think of them highly.
most friends knows how highly i think of friends. even my family.
to me, friends will come second behind family.
not like some others who think highly of their BFs and materialistic ideas.
those people are those who think for themselves only.
and they are the ones who take advantage of others.
But who am i to force friendships right?
diana..
*twinKLEs
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9:05 AM :)