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Monday, October 20, 2008
dear bloggy..
i tink my 18th birthday was more of a disaster than a blessing..
cos well, i didnt get to celebrate it wif ALL my friends..and then my plans with my family were cocked up..
so well..
in the end, nth went as expected..
firstly, i was supposed to meet mus at 10.30 and to wake him up at 9..
and i called him from 9 to god-noes-when...and guess wat..he woke up at 11! URGH! WTF!
cos his fon was on silent mode..so well..everything just cocked up from then..cos he cant mit me at newton cos his cuzs were ard..den change to bugis..and i had to wait again..*I HATE WAITING OKAY!* and he finally arrived..
managed to spend SOME time with him..which oni constitutes of less than an hour..after waiting for MORE THAN 2 HRS! URGH! *okay..i am sorry i am spilling everyting out..but i am just damn pissed off..and haf to tell everything from the start..*
he gave me my bdae pressie which i appreciate alot..and...*drumroll pls* he asked me to be his gal..
ohkay..well..dat was supposed to be the highlight of the day..and yeah..i was expecting it..so well, i accepted..i still love him..and i do..i cherish him alot! but i hate watever happened on my bdae.
and aft dat, we ate some snacks and drank sum drinks..and then i am otw home..
see..how boring was my bdae...
and i got home..and daddy was in a fit..he said i cocked up the plans cos i went to met mus..tp SORRY SIKIT EH. u said we are gg out in the late aftnn. i was back ard 3 okay.. and becos i cocked things up, our earlier plan to go out together as a family was scrapped. IMAGINE DAT!! u expect to celerate wif all ur loved ones but it was cancelled due to mommy working..and den..to celebrate wif oni my family was also SCRAPPED DUE TO A STUPID REASON!
so who didnt cry? tell me. tell me who wouldnt? my prepaid ran low so i cudnt get any msgs. and i dunnoe who cared enuf to send me msgs. so it just took a toll on me and i started to cry badly. i called yan, who didnt pick up. called aqilah, engaged, cant call the rest of my besties cos firstly, i didnt get their msgs so i dunnoe whether they rmbrd..if they dun, and i called, they'll feel bad..and i dun want that to happen..so well..i tried to call suf lar..and she didnt pick up..so well...i just gave up and called abg mamat..
which resulted in me just crying non-stop.
abg mamat: kenape adik nangis?
me: psl everything cocked up.
abg: tkpelah. esok leh celebrate dgn abg pe..
me: cried. *like hello. i am busy. i cant celebrate animore. and well, i want to celebrate wif everyone not wif u oni dammit.*
abg: nape nangis niiiii? esok jumpe abg k.
me: and i blew up! i practically screamed into the fon. kenape asik adik kene jumpe abg? y must i be the one to go to u. not the other way ard. all friends are the same. time susah, cari adik and yeah. i try like hell to come and mit u guys. then time i am crying like shit ni. tkde org nk jumpe adik. if u fucking love me kan, like every faggot says, ape kate come down to sch tmr, sit in front of my classroom door and wait for me?! too diff to prove u love me?! well. if u cant even pick up ur balls to meet me, forget dat i am ur sister.
abg: WHY ARE U LIKE THIS? WHY CANT U JUST SAY IT TO ME NICELY?
me: cos u are blardy stupid to say such a stupid, insensitive thing when i am already in this mood.
abg: OKAY. DEN TMR I MEET U IN SCH AT WAT TIME? 5.30? OKAY I'LL BE THERE.
and he hang up.
see? dat was dat...and i was still crying when i got another foncall..by sufy..but anum answered..ahahx..and yeah.. i was trying to not show i was crying tp bile sufy angkat i started to cry VERY BADLY that she got worried and pass to zaya ..ahahx...she tot it was becos of mus..tp mus tk pape pun...and well..i told the whole story..so, all of them came to my house...i tot it was oni anum , zaya and sufy..rupe2 nye the whole bp gang...they sang me a bdae song and they got me chocolates..ahahx..*THANKS K KORG! U GUYS MADE ME SMILE INSTEAD OF CRYING! hehe..*
actually i cried when sufy picked up the fon cos i didnt expect her to call..since kite mcm silent treatment kan..and well..when i called, though she didnt pick up, she actually called back to noe why i called..so well..mcm dulu lar..before kite tk bbl..hmmm..simply ckp eh..i am happy die bbl dgn aku..
THANKS SUFY! i hope kite leh mcm dulu. it sucks not having u ard.
i tink after dat, things seems to brighten up. cos i topped up my hp and got alot of msgs from alot of peeps..so well..mcm happy kan..so not everyone forgot..ahahx..but still wud haf love it if i get to spend it wif all of my frens and family..
thanks again to..
priya
aqilah
abg mamat
sufy
syaz
zul silat
zul mendaki
zulhan
syimah
fina
ain
huda
inessa
hadi
mas
huda
rak
haikal
haz
nazreen
liyana
huda
and of course..
MY DEAREST MUSADIQ..
for making my life complete..
diana..
*twinKLEs
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9:31 AM :)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
dear bloggy..
in a few hours, its gonna be my 18th bdae but i tell u, its not gonna be the same dae dat i ever had..
i wonder whether there would be more laughter and joy than last yr..
but i guess not larrr..just average since everyone is busy..
hmmm....klah..i wont want to talk abt dat..
i would love to talk abt the nite cycling..
its considered a success if u tink abt the fact that it ended WAAAAYY earlier than expected..
i managed to cycle 47km..on the road..at night..
SOOO FUNN!!!!
hehe..
and i also managed to watch the sunrise..and i tell you, it was a really majestic view..
although now, my butt is aching, my thighs are screaming, and my head is pounding..tired..but i am just too excited to sleep..
so now just resting lar..
ahahax..
the nite cycling was an eye opener..alot of things happened that made me ponder abt alot of stuffs..how sumtimes u tink dat happiness is forever but cud just disappear in a blink of an eye...
and well..how love can just come knocking at the door of your heart..
ahahax..
see? cant find the link btwn love and nite cycling?
ask me k..
oh..
and pics kan..
i'll update soon k.....
1hour 57mins left.
hehe..
diana..
*twinkLEs
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9:38 PM :)
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
dear bloggy..
5 MORE DAYS!
ahhax.
i pretend to be hyper to mask my tiredness..
cos actually at 5 am this morning i am in sch..in silat room..trying to not sleep..cos of all mfrens sleeping..
well..i had the last recce for the upcoming nite cycling event..and well..its supposed to end by 10.35..instead...it ended at 12am..and then we had to send a fren of ours home..and then guess wat happened? we got a FLAT tire in the middle of punggol..and heck it lar..we had to wait for 2 hrs before anione attended to us..not even any good samaritan actuay stopped to help us out..ohkay..so well..
after 2 hrs of waiting obviously everyone is tired and sleepy..and hungry..
so well..after repairing the lorry..we had a late supper-cum-early breakfast..ahahahx..
but i didnt eat cos i was feeling sucky..
and i am still feeling sucky now.ahahx.
klah.
haf to quit rambling cos i nid the toilet quite urgently. ahahx.
btw yeah!!! JALAN RAYA TODAEEE!!
hehehe..
k..k..
tc..
diana..
*twinKLEs
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4:57 AM :)
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
dearest bloggy..
i am seriously sorry for not updating that much..
like i say..i am getting too busy with all the stuffs happening in my life..
but thank God for small blessings..
ITP is ending this Saturday and school is starting next week...
hmm..before i start rambling on about my school term next wk..i think i would rather start on something else..
such as...
WISHING ALL MUSLIMS, EID MUBARAK..
MAAF ZAHIR AND BATIN...
this goes out especially to my family members whom i still havent managed to seek forgiveness, my relatives who are always too busy to spend some time strengthening family ties, to my friends, besties or not, and lastly for that special someone who has just appeared in my life..
i would like to seek forgiveness from all of you shoild i have ever raised my voice at you, thought of bad thoughts about you, gossiped about u, hurt ur feelings directly or indirectly and should i disappoint you one too many times..
i am sorry and i would really hope u cud accept my apology..
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back to other stuffs..
ITP:
gonna end this saturday, 11/10..
somehow excited to just leave this place and get out of this damn routine of being tired and stressed out..
however, i am gonna miss my colleagues too..esp santhi, maria, ms lo and of course marnop..hehehe..
they have helped me alot whenever i nid advice, instructions or a helping hand during my stay here..
and i know though THE boss might be a little over-bearing, he is still the boss and he has to act that way to make sure all stuffs are done..(though i disapprove of the choice of languages used..)
and yeah..
i really hope that the bond we share now is not forgotten once i stepped out of this premises..
to tell u the truth..life at work is nvr boring..
i have so many stories to share..yet not enuf time and not sure whether everyone is interested rite?
so rather than i bore u guys to death, u guys can always ask me whenever u see me!
hehe..
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HARI RAYA:
how was it for me?
firstly, kinda boring..
cos seriously, i didnt feel the spirit of celebrating it this yr..partly was becos i am always busy during the fasting month..so i didnt get to feel the excitement building up..
secondly, sad..
cos my relatives were mostly celebrating back at our hometown and i cudnt follow..so well..just imagine the sadness i felt..and also cos the remaining relatives back here were either to busy to mit up or just dun see the point of meeting up..
thirdly, quite fun..
cos i dunnoe lar..just meeting ur lil cuzs make u smile oooh soo much!
ahahx..
fourthly..i cant get enuf of it!
i cant go visiting as much as my jc frens are having their a's...and my poly mates arent even contacting me..and well..i am just damn busy..hehe..
okaylar..
but for the sake of meeting my beloved bpian frens, my madrasah frens, my god-sis, and every other fren dat doesnt fit in most of my categories, i am gonna spare some time for visiting okay?
and the first one would be my silat raya outing this SATURDAY too!
hehe...
hope to see all my beloved pesilats.
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18th birthday!!
coming up in 12 days..
cant say i am excited since all my plans are pending..
and i can say its confirmed i cant celebrate it wif my frens who shared my birthday happiness the year before..(u noe hu i mean okay..)
well..gonna say dat its gonna be kinda sad..cos seriously, i had hoped that my 18th would be one of the best bdaes i would ever had..but seeing the condition now..i guess not..
HAIX!
i might haf alot of frens, but the frens that i really treasure are just having their own busy plans and i just wont intefere wif them..(dun mean to offend nibody..just saying the truth..)
and i hope again that i wont cry on my bday again..
ahahx..
k..
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and am sorry about not blogging here too much..
cos i have started another blog at another website..where i mostly share my poems and stuffs like that..
sumhow i am happier and more satisfied as i get responses so at least i noe whether i nid to improve or not..
but i love this blog too okay.
xp
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He is sumhow testing me to the limit. sumtimes i dunnoe whether to ust scream at him and leave him stranded alone. but somehow, he always manage to get at my softer side. urgh.
i am disappointed with the new him. i long for the old him. haix.
i dunnoe whether everything will work out or not. and if it doesnt, i am gonna accept it. not gonna cry again. stupid thing to do. cry. and cry. and cry.
urgh.
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klah..
thanks again to mas for the very advanced bday present!
(i tink u guys just love giving me watches ehk?) ahahx
take care everyone..
will update again soon..insya'allah..
diana..
*twinKLEs
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1:19 PM :)