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Friday, February 8, 2008

dear bloggy..

i m gg to be philosophical at the moment so juz bear wif me k.

u noe, sumtimes i hate guys soooo much dat i cant imagine having to live life wif one of these idiots forever.
but sumtimes, i juz cant help being grateful that i haf met sum really gd guys in life.
for eg, abg remy and abg raden..they haf been wif me thru thick and thin and though sumtimes we haf disagreements, we still stick wif ea other..for eg yan, wifout him, i wudnt haf anione who cud understand me and tahan my bitchy-ness..(i wasnt born an angel k..) for dat one guy, musadiq, he really showed me that guys cud be really diff..not all guys are the same...he was the oni guy whom i had chemistry wif...he was the sweetest guy..cos he had treated me like a QUEEN gosh!! we nvr realy fought..but it ended in despair..i m nvr gonna forget him lar..ishk..

and well..
sum f***ers muz exist in my life..and thanks for ur appearance..it helps me to realise how f***ed up this world is.

THANKS AR K!!! u will be damned for the whole of my life!

haiiiz..
i really hope i can find dat one guy..who can gif me dat same feeling mus gave me...i noe its like asking for a lot..but wat is alot?
lemme list to u wat i want in a guy..
and ponder abt it aites?

i want a guy that:

accepts me for who i am
understands me (meaning when i say i dunnoe, no and i dun like..dun ever f***ing force me to..)
cares for me
loves me..(i tell u its two diff things between love and care..check out the dictionary aites..)
has a stable life..or..has planned for the future..(cos i hate cock ups..)

i dun tink i haf aniting else lar..cos everyting else is lyk a repetition..so tell me..isit too much to ask for?

if it is. correct me.

i noe. i m mere human. so well..

my miserable-ness cudnt even be cured by my training juz now..

i tried so hard to concentrate..but i felt like killing dat fucker juz now..

ARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!

k..k..relax babes..rmb everything he taught juz now..dun forget k..train summore..prove to blardy freaking idiots u r not any plain idiot..

ok..

k..k..

wanna go off now and cry..

diana..

*twinKLes

*aiyayay..i m ur lil' social butterfly..green black and blue and yellow is the colour of my bruises..~

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