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Monday, April 7, 2008
dear bloggy..
yest was a helluva boring day for me..
well..like finally, i haf a day juz for me to relax at home..
but madrasah was fun..
cos ustadz affif and ustadz ismail had talked abt very interesting topics that are near to the hearts of the muslim teenagers nowadays...the influence of the television, the open-mindedness of secular-schooled students, inter-racial marriages and marriages with ex-convicts..
well..like i had told alot of my frens, when i first made the decision of wearing a tudung, i noe dat there would be a misconception..even before i had worn the tudung, i had alot of misconceptions of girls in tudung..sumtimes, i think that they are not sincere in wearing it..cos when they wear it, they still dun display the apt behaviour that wont bring a disgrace to themselves and of course their religion..that was the reason why i damn really didnt want to wear a tudung cos i had tot that i wasnt good enuf to wear one..i noe dat i am not good enuf..but i am sincere in wearing it..i really wanted to show the good image of my own religion and more or less i haf managed to get my message across to sum of my frens..and well..i realised dat i haf to accept others the way they are..and that every individual has their own reasons for their own actions..
but heck it..i still haf my own weakness..which u can say is bitch abt others...i bitch becos i haf a gd reason to do so..u think i juz bitch abt any and every person in this world? any guy that i haf a past history which i juz want to get revenge at? i haf realised early in life dat revenge isnt the ans to everything..and vulgarism isnt the ans to get ur msg across...well..i do use vulgar words when i am uber-angry/pissed off..but i still practise patience lar sey..if i am not patient, i wud juz haf lashed out at u lar mike..
and u noe wat mike? i think u are juz a bored kid wif nothing to do and well..juz loves to cari pasal dgn org yg tahu pape..well..u are also a coward since u dun dare to intro to me abt u..u dun even dare to get to noe me..
hell..ppl are always deceiving others...however honest they are lar..so well..i can always deceive others abt my true character..but one thing is for sure..i tend to be honest to those who are sincere to be my fren..and well.i try to be as honest as possible in my blog entries too..so well..dat resulted in u getting offended..so there's oni one thing for certain..u cant click wif me..cos well...oni those who really understand me can click wif me..if not, they wud juz insult me like u do..and dun tink dat u r the oni one who has ever done this to me..i am prepared of all kinds of bullshit that makes up my life..so i feel okay..i feel better when a person criticise..at least i noe i am not perfect..and dearest mike, watever happens to me wont haf any effect on u..and yeah..i am trying to change but to me, my blog is for the entertainment of those who read it..
and its public so that it wont be troublesome for those who wants to view it anonymously..why dont u be like the other readers who dun comment but read? and if they do comment,give me some advices wifout the vulgarities..it wont bring the msg across..to me esp..
well..i really dont want to layan u lah for goodness sakes..
so well..take care mike..
and yeah..change urself first before u want others to change for ur happiness..
diana..
*twinKLEs
aka Chandini..
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2:00 PM :)
