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Saturday, May 3, 2008
dearest bloggy...
yest was equally fun and equally disappointing for me..for one thing, the freshies were really great and i really love seeing their eagerness to join in our trainings..really hope to see them always in the next few trainings..and well..for our training, it was really strenuous cos mainly, talha and irfan were focusing on power and speed..and for me, it was really tiring lar..i am used to just doing seni..tapi tkpelah..it was REALLY a GREAT training!! love u all to bits..
tapikann..
i was very terkilan when its like..i feel as though sum of the pesilats dun even haf faith in me doing my job..kalau korg tak suke aku buat kerje aku..u can always change the secretary kan? seriously..the sarcastic remarks sumtimes are too painful to take in..but u noe wat? u guys wont ever see me shed any tears..senang aje..i will quit..if its wat u guys are asking for..i will...no worries..
and well..the coming camp clashes wif two major events laaaarr....and i am having a fit over it...why? cos well...zul said dat i am impt for the camp so i shud go..and for the mendaki Atomatik event, i haf already volunteered myself a LONG time ago..i feel bad if last minute back out kan? and thennnnn...on the 18th ..i am having my madrasah exams for 2 subjects..tk stress ke? tell me? HAIIIIXXXX...
and well..if i miss silat camp, i wont be able to join ivp too!! cos i dun want to join tanding..and i cant join seni cos we are sending oni one team which is not my team..yeahhhh..i noe dat my seni is not perfect at all..
and seriously..i dun feel like myself animore..nowadays i easily get worked up over small-small things...and it sux..i love being that happy diana yg jarang nk mrh2..always available to help others..and well..stress-free...ahaahhax..mcm betul..tp skrg lainnnn...
nowadays..i always haf the feeling that i am an utter failure..i cant do my job right..my studies aint that good too...i cant be a good sister, friend...much less a gf...thats y i am really sticking to being single..i am sick of all those lame shits hu say that they love me and such..guys..get this rite: u love my pics. not me. the real me.
tell me..what did i do wrong in life? well. i guess i haf the answer.
and thanks to that person hu said i was perasan. cos i wasnt. and it hurt me way too much. jgn sampai aku benci kau k. but dun tink u wud even be reading this blog lar.
haix.
diana..
*twiNKLEs
*aku nk lari tapi tkleh. kenape. aku nk nangis tp tkleh. kenape.
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7:56 AM :)
