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Sunday, August 10, 2008
dear bloggy..
this date is very memorable for me.
i feel like crying just thinking abt this day..
last year,
on this date, at 11.30am, a certain guy who had filled my heart, had asked me to be his. and only his.
that historical date was supposed to be celebrated again this year. but it was not meant to be. being his was only for some time. yet, the feelings and memories still lingered on. till now. i still wonder about him. still miss him. still have those feelings for him but sumhow, this heart is not ready for another charade of pain and disappointment.
but well..
this person here who had promised to shield herself from that pain has just been hurt again. by a specific member of the opposite species in fact. a mat rempit. and she was hurt badly cos well, f the humilitation that guy had spewed to her face when she was plain confused of whatever that is happening. that humiliation is enuf to break the shield she had around herself. and in the end, she was the victim in the story. she was the victim of disappointment.
today, not only has she failed in her "relationship", she failed in friendship too.
she had hurt the feelings of her best friend by not telling news she heard. haix.
she could only offer apologies but she knows that the scar will still be there whatever happens.
yet,
she was cheered up by a fren who said dat mat rempit is a sorry piece of shyt. he acted dat way cos he cant control his own emotions and too egoistic that he expects ppl to listen and treat him the way he wants them to. dat kind of a guy wont last long in life. and another fren said dat she shudnt feel upset by such idiotic comments since that fren noes dat she is one helluva great gal. any guy who gets her is a lucky guy since that fren thinks that she is very nice, cute and fun to be with.
those comments brighten up her mood. made her smile. but the biggest smile was contributed by getting a nudge by that someone who had promised to be wif her the past yr before. that same guy who asked her to be his on this date.
he had changed. totally. new image. specs. hawt-ness oozing from his pictures. yet, she didnt managed to chat wif dat guy since dat guy left wifout a word.
now she's left alone again. accompanied by her fren whom she shares the room wif for the night.
and her only distraction is either this piece of technology or the sheafs of notes spread out on the bed. cos tomorrow is her test..and the start of many more tests to come...she has no other choice but to sacrifice her spare time to study although sumtimes temptation overcomes her desire to just study. she has to put aside time too for her extra classes and tuition..and the upcoming attachment and presentation keeps her busy time after time..
she just has to be patient, strong and smart in handling all these stuffs and not get any major headaches over anything..
but for now, she needs her rest..
cos she has been out for the whole day..
not counting the other stuffs that bothered her..
anyways, to that person who had once filled her heart, she still misses you.
and well...thanks for the nudge on this day which was supposed to be their special day..
diana..
*twinKLEs
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11:21 PM :)