* SHE *

{♥} diana *twinKLes
{♥} 19101990
{♥} 3rd Yr in SP

* WISHES *

{♥} car license
{♥} bike license
{♥} full-face helmet
{♥} new jeans
{♥} new bag
{♥} new top

* LOVES *

{♥} caramel frappe from McCafe
{♥} peach tea with blueberry jelly
{♥} POKKA peach tea
{♥} Seasons ice lemon tea
{♥} mee soto
{♥} nasi goreng kampung
{♥} yong tau foo
{♥} techno/trance tunes
{♥} books

* LINKIES *


{♥} *syaZzie - the closest one..
{♥} *iNESSie - the faraway bestie..
{♥} *fiNA - the creative one! hehe..
{♥} *fytch - the emo one..
{♥} *mas - the BELO chef..
{♥} *DyM0nd - MY SIS..
{♥} *DinAh mIszStAR* - MY lastest SIS..
{♥} *KaK AiMi..my COOLEST cuz!
{♥} *nas - the PINK lover..
{♥} *atiQah - the BLUE lover..
{♥} *zulhafiz - the intellectual one..
{♥} *dZahir - the one DEVOTED..
{♥} *NurHAna - the b00kWorm..
{♥} *HaZiQ - the foTograPHer =P..
{♥} *FAZLI - the computer GENIUS..
{♥} *hazzie - the uber-hyper one!
{♥} *fanna - the one that i always chat wif..
{♥} *saSHA - the CUTE junior!
{♥} *ZAKIAH..- the ketot but cute junior!
{♥} *kAk JuNn - my sophisticated sis!
{♥} *hayati - the uniquely pretty one..
{♥} *Riaaa - the fierce but pretty fighter..
{♥} *shiffa - the cute fighter!
{♥} *ApIz - the TP fighter!
{♥} *spsc - the bestest club ever!
{♥} *FASHIONLOOT - check it out!
{♥} *MUSLIMAH CREATIONS - just for MUSLIMAHS ehe..

{♥} `brushes_peach blush
{♥} `designer_e*lame

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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

dear bloggy...



FINAL YEAR EXAMINATIONS ARE OVER!!
so well, next is to wait for my results which will be released in abt 2 more weeks.hehe..
insya'allah i will pass and get into 3rd year!
hehe..

so well, yesterday was Molecular biology..and like usual, i will always get confused abt sum terms..but the paper is still do-able..hehe....

and yeah, as soon as i stepped out from the classroom, i just cant be bothered to think abt anything else apart from FOOD! hehe..cos well, yest the four of us, me, kaya, kahyan and aqilah went to jurong point's pizza hut for our celebratory lunch! hehe..i had Chicken Haven! hehe..and OMGness the alfredo sauce is sooo heavenly..hehe...and we had side dishes too! like the petite salad, criss cross fries and fish o's! yest was like the oni day i was ready to splurge! ahahx...


and well, after all of us finished our own meal..esp for kahyan who had trouble to finish her veggie lover's pizza..we went strolling in jp for awhile..went to this fashion to check out sum dresses..before gg to NIE where we went out to check out the courses offered there after graduating from poly..okaylar..the trip there was quite enlightening and i do know that i might take up courses there since i am interested to teach..but come to think of it, i love sciences too..confuse eh..oh well..i still had a yr to think abt it..ahahx..

hmmm...

niwaes, yest i made my own realisation..*thanks to Z..* that i really nid to noe myself before i even attempt to noe others..as in, getting into a serious relationship..i might haf tot that i haf knwn myself before this when i was wif musadiq..however, things haf happened in the past yr that haf made me think otherwise..i realised that i might crave for a serious, long-term relationship however, i haf other things i want to do in life which i dun tink is possible if i am attached..especially if my partner cant understand and allow me to do so..

well..its just that i haf met a couple of guys..who cant accept watever i wanna do..for eg, riding a bike, travelling the world to help others and doing all those stuff i dream of doing but havent been able to do so..ahahx..and that made me realise that i shudnt limit myself of my own dreams just for another guy...so yeah. as long as i dun feel that i haf achieved watever i dreamt of in my life, i dun tink i wud settle down..

unless, if that person can understand me and allow me to do my dreams..then mayb i settle down..

well..i seriously haf to thank z for giving me all those advices and motivation..he truly made me want to kejar my dream of studying further and nvr giving up..summore since i haf seen that if he can excel, i can too! ehehe... =)


and yeah..he doesnt want to contact me too..together wif K..so i am okay wif dat lar...i noe i haf to learn to give and take..

so well...


dats all for now..


diana..
*twiNKLEs

embrace the moments in life* ; 10:49 AM :)

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

dear bloggy..

Exam fever is here! and just yesterday i haf finished my Basic Instrumental Analysis paper yesterday! Forgetful as usual, i forgot my calculator! hehe..i was panicking and really about to cry but thankfully a fren of mine could lend his calculator to me..hehe..*thanks isma and lutfi!

the paper was not that difficult as i had expected so well, i felt quite relieved..

and hmm...fri is my Anatomy and Physiology Paper..ahahx..quite interesting to read up but full of facts and details to remember..am already starting all the revisions so that all the papers wont cork up that much..ahhaax..

niwaes, i noe that the past few days i am like...having so many things inside my mind..

family problem - still trying to get over it. but talked abt it.
relationship problem - ITS HISTORY! wif azmi i mean. hehe.
examination problem - solving it bit by bit. no giving up man!

however, i got to noe that 3 other guys like me..*haha. + yan who has just gotten back from NZ. still hasnt changed* and well...to tell u the truth, i feel kinda strangled wif all the attention..
i cant stand I's obsessiveness.

He cant stand the fact that there are other guys that like me. and he just cant trust me. well, cos like today, i went out to haf lunch wif syaz..and he kept insisting that i am meeting another guy when i wasnt. and when i got tired and said: 'yeah..i am meeting a guy..' he felt hurt and was disappointed wif me..urgh...and well, i was honest to him in the sense that i told him that there are other guys who like me..and well, i wud respect it if he gives me the time and space for me to get to noe the rest too..but it doesnt seem to me that he understands cos well, whenever i am talking wif Z, he wud always sms me..and when i dun reply he will call me..he cud call me up to 15 times just for me to reply to him..URGH! irritaiting tau..and syaz doesnt seem to like him..and i am beginning to dislike him although he is not such a bad guy...but he does remind me abt azmi..ahahx..

Z is diff i must say..diff in race and language..but i find him interesting as he has the same interest as me..Sciences but in a more specific branch which is marine biology..whereas i am more interested in botany..ahahx..i like him based on his maturity and the way he respects girls..interesting yeah? and he really gives me an inspiration to excel in life..thanks Z! will always remember all ur advice..he did say he likes me..and well, i dunnoe how things wud turn out in the end..but like he said, he will give me the time and space during my exams n then mayb aft my exams he wud bring me out to see his reserach work! sumhow i am excited abt it..hehe..

lastly is K..and K is more familiar wif my frens as my melayu frens have met him and kinda like him..he is also of diff race and willing to learn more abt our religion and stuff like that..although he is cute, but i cant find him to be of a long-term material..well, he scares the hell out of me as he kept treating me like a patient..well, he got to noe i haf problems and he keep insisting me to talk to him abt my problems..its not that i dun want, its just that i dun trust him enuf to tell him abt my problems..and i dun want to bother him wif mine..and the more he kept asking me to meet him, the more i feel strangled too...cos he once said that i shud try to make time for him if i wanna be wif him...

but doesnt he understand that i am very committed to my other stuffs..for example my silat club, my volunteering activities and also my SIFE competition..? ishk..i really need sumone who understands all these, can give me support and also time and space for me to pursue those stuffs which i love to do..its not as though i am begging anione for their money and time...and yesh..it wud take sum time for me to trust and let myself to truly introduce myself to sumone..

so pls my dear frens...
pls stop calling me a playgirl, or a girl who is like always falling in love..cos i am not falling in love animore..it sickens me whenever ppl keep calling me names..and also when they say that i like ALOT of guys..like HELLOOOOO..i do like guys and i am honest abt it thats why i always talk abt it..but LIKE is not = to LOVE. get it? i might like GUYS in UNIFORM, another guy from SP and a few other guys whom i got to noe of..but it doesnt mean i will fall for them rite?

i really dun get it why..esp my silat frens...think so...

and i would really prove to them that i am not like what they think..but i prefer to be my own self..so i might act like a guy, being brash and rude at times, and gawk at every guy that pass by, but i will be true to one person when the time comes...cos i expect that person to accept me cos of who i am..what for do i want to act to wat the society expects to see from me.. when its not my true self? well..for eg, wif me wearing tudung, frens or acquaintances find it weird i hear to techno, likes to talk brashly and sumtimes act like a guy..ahahx..

like wat i always say: 'AKU PUNYE PASAL LARRR!!'

so yeah..

ahahx..


diana..
*twinKLES

embrace the moments in life* ; 2:09 PM :)

Friday, February 13, 2009

dear bloggy..
what better way to chill out before the exams than hanging out wif peeps at VIVO!! hehehe..
was there to celebrate dearest wiwi's 19th birthday! on TEUSDAY! hehe..
me, sufy and zaya surprised wiwi first at vivo's rooftop by giving her a white choc macadamia cake from secret recipe..hehe..
then we went to harbourfront's pastamania for wiwi's bdae lunch! hehe..and wiwi treated us by paying part of the whole bill...*thanks wiwi!
farhana also came when we were starting to eat..and yeah..we did take pics..but not wif my fon..so haf to wait till the rest upload then i can post in the blog..hehehe...

the highlight was the hanging out at the rooftop near the swinging man..hehehe...we played cards..*main bluff tk pass ke suf! hehehe! and yeah..aliff main..ishkk..penipu haram! hehehe..*
and we played truth or dare...*kecian aliff..cannot do one chicky dance..heheheheheh*
and then the rest came..meaning jann and dewi..
miss them loads! ahahx..but i was caught up in a book..hehe..*diana nvr change eh korg..asik dgn buku je..* den dats all..byk camwhoring je..hehehe..


okay2..

so EXAMS are officially HERE!! heheheeh

gtg chiong uhhh..

diana..
*twinKLEs

embrace the moments in life* ; 12:16 PM :)

Sunday, February 8, 2009

dear bloggy..

the NUS vs SP friendly was a SUCCESS!! success!! SUCCESS!! hehehe..

no major cork-ups...no serious injury..(except for abg wafi with a twisted leg which was treated and okay by the end of the match..) but lots of fun, experience and tightening of friendships..although i dun really mingle alot with the NUS peeps cos busy with handling stuffs and actually i was quite shy wif most of the NUS peeps..yelah..silat-wise, most of them are more experienced..and intellectual-wise..they are smarter too...so well..i feel inferior to them..ahahx..

niwaes, yest was the first time i shed tears when i was praying..i was really shocked lar dat it happened..didnt expect it...but i noe it means i can change..and there is still time for me to change...

oh well..
nth much to update..

diana..
*twiNKLEs

embrace the moments in life* ; 9:21 PM :)

Friday, February 6, 2009

dear bloggy..

i haf been wallowing in too much sorrows that i haf forgotten to look on the brighter side of things..
fyi..
last sunday..during madrasah, i got EXCELLENT NEWS!!
hehe..
i got back my last yr's results!
and guess what? i PASSED!!!! hehe..and i really mean, a good pass..hehe..i wont tell u the grades becos if noe, sumone will throttle me to death. (my sister =P) but alhamdulillah, the grades were good enuf for me to continue to my next yr wifout repeating any subjects..hehe..

and well..
almost all of my frens noe abt him and are happy that i am wifout him animore. they knew that he was a bad influence to me..and they noe that he wud take a looooonnngg time to change..

and yesterday, me and syaz, we went for a trip back in time by going back to BPGHS..
and OMGness..my alma meter is SOOOO HUGE wif SOOOOOO MANY facilities that i am OH-SO-DAMN-JEALOUS! hehe...but i had fun by just walking and roaming around in sch..
*no more EMAS room? -sulk- * but we met a tarian junior who cudnt recognise me or syaz cos we were both in tudung..hehehe..but she was sooo cute..she wanted us to attend her tarian training..tapikan..nid the permission of the teacher-in-charge, Cikgu Marlinah..hehe..so well..maybe soon we will meet..

hehe..
and well, otw to Lot1 for lunch, we talked abt random stuff..and we started talking abt him..Syaz was DAMN furious wif him lar and she is happy i am ignoring him..hehe..well..syaz said that i am pretty..one of her frens who are unik-ly pretty so she thinks that i shudnt care what he said abt me..*thanks babes..u really made me smile! =)))) hehehe*

hmm..though syaz got a headache after that, we managed to shop awhile...

and got home feeling exhilarated..

sometimes those random stuffs i do always satisfies me..

hehe..

diana..
*twiNKLEs

embrace the moments in life* ; 6:48 PM :)

Thursday, February 5, 2009

dear bloggy...

i am sick of u already. so yeah. my heart is totally closed to u already. i am sorry but i just cant accept the way u are acting now. trying so hard that its hows how insincere u are. not oni me, but my bestie said the same too. i dun want u to change just for me. its for u. will and always haf been for u. not for me. i nid u to realise ur mistakes before its too late.

i guess its over between us.

pls dun try to contact me if u still haf the intention to impress me cos it doesnt mean anything to me animore.

make other deserving girl impress of u. not me.

thanks for the sum of the memories we had.

take care..

======================================

exams are nearing, so i dun haf alot of time to ponder abt such things.

diana..
*twiNKLEs

embrace the moments in life* ; 10:24 PM :)

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

dear bloggy...

did u noe that the opposite of love is not hate..but indifference?
did u noe that once a person is indifferent towards his/her partner it means that nothing is gonna mend that relationship?
i dont think u noe rite?
u still want that one chance? i am giving it to u becos of ur brother..but i doubt anything can change.
i cant believe that after watever happened in ur past, u still cant bother to change..its no doubt no one would want to stick to u.
but i am happy that u haf changed from ur old ways..*u noe wat i mean*
just dun make it temporary. make those changes permanent and insya'allah u will find sumone who can accept u and whom u can accept..
i just cant be bothered to change myself for u. let me change at my own course. cos these changes u ask me to do is not attitude-wise..but physically..

i dunnoe wat else to say but let time tell.

diana..
*twinKLEs

embrace the moments in life* ; 11:02 AM :)

Monday, February 2, 2009

dear bloggy..

i am getting very pissed off wif sumone.
i dun understand why u cant understand what the **** i am talking abt! urgh!

seriously..ur attitude needs a MAJOR makeover! not me! like duuhh..

why isit that u wish for me to be sumone that i nvr want to be and nvr would like to be?
i dun want to wear contacts, to put on make-up and get uber thin! what do i get by doing so?
i look prettier? oh well. dun u realise that alot of guys like me the way i am? my FRIENDS love me for who i am. and that's why i love them oh so much! UNLIKE U! my exs NEVER commented negatively at me.. they would usually say, "yeah..u are not damn pretty but i love u for who u are..u are just..blah..blah..blah..."

YOU keep saying.."yeah..i dun mind how u look like..cos behind that face u haf, u are such a pretty girl..seriously, if u take off ur tudung u would be damn gorgeous..ur islamic knowledge is great! and u wish to change for the better...i am SOOOO proud of u..", but each time u also will say.."but u can be prettier rite? u can wear contacts, etc2.."

YOU KNOW WHAT? I HAF HAD IT WIF ALL THIS BULLSHIT! IF U WANT SUCH A BITCH, JUST PRE-ORDER HER FROM ANY MATCH-MAKING SITES BUT NEVER EVER EXPECT ME TO CHANGE FOR YOU. I HAVE SURVIVED 18 FREAKING YEARS OF MY LIFE IN CONTROL OF MYSELF SO WHY now MUST I BE CONTROLLED BY YOU?

I DUN WISH TO BE CONTROLLED BY SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T DESERVE TO CONTROL ME.

DO U UNDERSTAND THIS OR U STILL NEED ME TO EXPLAIN?

change YOURSELF before u change others.

and dun blame me if anything happens btwn us. i haf given u OH-SO-MANY hints and chances.


OH. and never blame me for listening to my friends. cos u dun wish to listen to me, i haf to make u listen. fyi, i am not as DUMB as u think i am.

W-A-K-E_U-P!

diana..
*twiNKLEs

ps: and i noe my frens would support me all the way in this. cos like i ALWAYS say, they ALWAYS stick wif me thru thick and thin.
* devoted would ans: BETUL3X! *



Dance floor anthem - GOOD CHARLOTTE - GOOD CHARLOTTE

this song would show u what i feel NOW!

embrace the moments in life* ; 10:27 AM :)