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Monday, February 2, 2009
dear bloggy..
i am getting very pissed off wif sumone.
i dun understand why u cant understand what the **** i am talking abt! urgh!
seriously..ur attitude needs a MAJOR makeover! not me! like duuhh..
why isit that u wish for me to be sumone that i nvr want to be and nvr would like to be?
i dun want to wear contacts, to put on make-up and get uber thin! what do i get by doing so?
i look prettier? oh well. dun u realise that alot of guys like me the way i am? my FRIENDS love me for who i am. and that's why i love them oh so much! UNLIKE U! my exs NEVER commented negatively at me.. they would usually say, "yeah..u are not damn pretty but i love u for who u are..u are just..blah..blah..blah..."
YOU keep saying.."yeah..i dun mind how u look like..cos behind that face u haf, u are such a pretty girl..seriously, if u take off ur tudung u would be damn gorgeous..ur islamic knowledge is great! and u wish to change for the better...i am SOOOO proud of u..", but each time u also will say.."but u can be prettier rite? u can wear contacts, etc2.."
YOU KNOW WHAT? I HAF HAD IT WIF ALL THIS BULLSHIT! IF U WANT SUCH A BITCH, JUST PRE-ORDER HER FROM ANY MATCH-MAKING SITES BUT NEVER EVER EXPECT ME TO CHANGE FOR YOU. I HAVE SURVIVED 18 FREAKING YEARS OF MY LIFE IN CONTROL OF MYSELF SO WHY now MUST I BE CONTROLLED BY YOU?
I DUN WISH TO BE CONTROLLED BY SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T DESERVE TO CONTROL ME.
DO U UNDERSTAND THIS OR U STILL NEED ME TO EXPLAIN?
change YOURSELF before u change others.
and dun blame me if anything happens btwn us. i haf given u OH-SO-MANY hints and chances.
OH. and never blame me for listening to my friends. cos u dun wish to listen to me, i haf to make u listen. fyi, i am not as DUMB as u think i am.
W-A-K-E_U-P!
diana..
*twiNKLEs
ps: and i noe my frens would support me all the way in this. cos like i ALWAYS say, they ALWAYS stick wif me thru thick and thin.
* devoted would ans: BETUL3X! *
Dance floor anthem - GOOD CHARLOTTE - GOOD CHARLOTTEthis song would show u what i feel NOW!
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10:27 AM :)
