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Friday, August 28, 2009
dear bloggy..
i wont judge my decision of breaking up with u nimore..i know that it wasnt fair to leave u at such a time but i just dun wanna continue a relationship that to me does not help me to change.
i need to change. i yearn to change. i dun wanna stay like this forever.
though i had told ppl i had changed, but that change is not enuf. i really wanna change for the better and u cudnt help me. so i am sorry.
niwaes, its better like this since i can then focus on my studies, etc.
and well..since we broke up, so many stuffs i haf heard from other ppl..and i know i cant easily believe them..but knowing that such things do exist just make me think that u werent who i expected u to be..
maybe u shud haf just come clean with me when we first met.
i would have been much happier.
take care.
i haf other problems to think about rather than just abt u.
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exams are ongoing and to tell u the truth, i haf no faith in passing the first two papers. even if i do, i dun haf the faith i would pass overall..sumhow i expect myself to repeat my final sem..sucky aint it?
but ramadhan is gg fine..insyaallah i will fast for this whole month without fail..and i hope so too.. =) so that i wont have to think of paying back my fast in the months to come..
i really agree that this month does help me in changing to become sumone better.. =)
i am still trying to be more patient, understanding, hardworking, focused and organised..
i am also gonna prove during raya that i can be as pretty, as nice, as gorgeous..as i like..haha..without having to prove to guys that i need to be tall, beautiful, etc2..
haha..
i am still trying to work on my self-esteem which has been hurt so much by other insensitive people's actions..
so yeah, my aim is to be a better person mentally and physically..insyaallah things would work out..
amin..
gotta go now and study..
=)
diana..
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1:35 PM :)
